My Great-aunt Felipa was unique. Born in 18__ she was
one of the several pretty daughters of ____ Fajardo. The Fajardos were well born but poor,
so that it was a distinct triumph when in 185_ one of the sisters, Julia, married the
wealthy and cultured Pedro de Regil y Peon. I have a daguerreotype of my grandmother made
about this time, which shows a rather lovely girl, with oval face, fine eyes and a good
figure. But the expression is both brooding and petulant.
I have also a picture of Felipa - possibly taken at the same time. She
was a tiny thing, slender and erect, her head carried proudly. Her features were
irregular, her hair black and wavy, her black eyes, under heavy brows, magnificent. (They
sparkled and flashed - expressing joy - anger - pity - sadness - they were the most alive
eyes I have ever seen. I only knew Tia Felipa as an old lady. By that time the black hair
was snowy, the slender body less erect. But the eyes were just as alive, the head just as
proudly held.
In things of the mind and spirit the girl and the old woman were the
same. A lack of formal education was more than compensated by an amazing clarity of
thought, sparkling wit and plain common sense. Her mind was so uncluttered that she could
see things, events and persons with piercing clarity - and her memory was prodigious and
exact.
All her life she was fearless. She spoke her mind, but since she was so
completely honest and sincere - no one resented her outspokenness. To her family and
friends - and the latter came from all walks of life, she was deeply loyal. A devout
Catholic, she, unlike some of the other relatives, never paraded her religious feelings,
and I am inclined to believe she was tolerant of sinners, though she might chastise them
with her tongue - in private.
She preserved certain sensibilities and delicacies of behavior which
were, even at the turn of the century, quite obsolete. In England Mother and I, starved
for news of our friends in Mérida - would have to put up with polite conversation on the
weather - or enquiries as to our health when we received letters from tia Felipa. In her
youth gossip, especially via the mails, had not been considered genteel, I would marvel at
how she succeeded so well in hiding her vibrant personality behind these platitudes
written in a flowing copperplate.
Her early life was a mystery to her nephews and nieces. I think many
men must have fallen in love with her but on this subject her lips were closed. I do know
that many men sought her friendship and advice - even when she was quite old.
From the age of 15 she had lived in her brother-in-law's house -
helping her sister Julia with the upbringing of the five children. She must have
supervised the many servants and retainers of that great and complex establishment,
because the bond which existed between her and some of the old servants was a very close
one - based on years of shared experiences.
I suppose she never had much money - for her personal effects were of
the simplest, save for a few jewels which had been gifts. However, she did own a small
house on the outskirts of the town - to which she would go every now and again for a few
days of quiet and country air. I only went there once, and was surprised by its rustic
charm. The house was small and nondescript but was kept sweet and shining by the two old
servants who lived there. But if the house was poor the garden was a revelation. Over the
years, by a system of selection of the finest, my great-aunt had created an orchard of
choicest fruit trees all grown from seed. An ascetic in her eating habits she had one
weakness - she could never resist fine fruit. So her friends would send her the choice
produce of their orchards, and she in turn would lay aside the seeds of the best fruit.
These would be sent to her Quinta where an old gardener would plant them, then tend the
young shoots and then the tree, till in the fullness of time, it produced fine fruit of
its own. Knowing no science her inquiring mind and keen sense of observation led her to
the same results achieved by the great horticulturists of the century.
She had strong political feeling, and, as an ardent imperialist, held
the republican regime in scorn. When President Porfirio Diaz visited this far off corner
of the republic in 190_ tia Felipa left town and traveled to Cuba. She did not wish to
share the same sky with the victor of the battle of Puebla.
I have lived to regret that I did not listen more carefully to her
stories of the Empire and of Carlota's visit to Yucatan. As a child I found the delights
of the kitchen of the big house more alluring than long accounts of events which seemed
already shadowy and unimportant and I would make my escape as soon as I could. Though not
too soon, because my Great-aunt Felipa had old fashioned ideas on the requirements of
courtesy. (The younger generation came in for many an acid comment.) Nevertheless I did
absorb some of the "feel" of that earlier period: of the sincere and passionate
attachment to the blond young Emperor Maximillian and his enigmatic Carlota on the part of
some - balancing an equally sincere and passionate attachment to the republican cause on
the part of others. Who is to say which were right?
There were other tales which I found more interesting - and one sticks
in my memory as throwing light on the courtesy and good breeding of those times. Midway
through the century many families were penniless due to the Indian War of '48 and to civil
strife. When the time came for the traditional carnival balls, lest any young lady suffer
from lack of an appropriate dress - the sponsors of the ball decreed that all should come
dressed in tarletan (cheapest of all materials) adorned only with fresh flowers. The girls
must have looked charming.
Endearing quirks of my Great-aunt Felipa were her passion for
cleanliness and her equal passion for certain barly sugar candies procurable only in
London. Also for English needles and fine black lisle hose. The latter were difficult to
find, for her foot was so tiny that no English shop would have them in stock. It is my
theory that Walpole's would order them from France - to oblige my mother, who was an old
and valued customer. With these stockings tia Felipa wore little shoes of black stuff -
such as must have been familiar to Miss Austen - and forerunners of today's
"ballerina's".
The bath, from which she emerged a chaste Venus delicately perfumed
with the finest of Castille soap and rice powder, was a daily ritual which started with
two maids wheeling into her room an ancient, ponderous hip bath mounted on two wheels.
Buckets of hot and cold water followed, and a handmaiden carrying a very large bath towel.
As the last of the singular procession entered the room the great doors were shut. If by
some chance my mother arrived during the period of the bath, a comfortable leather chair
was placed for her on the outer side of the door and the visit would proceed (conversation
between the two ladies being conducted through the transom) to the accompaniment of gentle
sounds of splashing and the soft movements of the maids. When the portals were at last
flung open, and the procession of maids, bath towel, and bath emerged, we would go in to
find Tia Felipa sitting in her hammock, delicately powdering her face with 'creme de riz',
her black eyes, now losing their sight, riveted on a hand mirror.
Conversation would ripple and flow for a little and then be interrupted
by the arrival of the lunch tray. Tiny portions of food lay on tiny plates and though the
food was of the plainest it had to be beautifully cooked and seasoned. She would take a
few mouthfuls then push away the tray, apologizing for her lack of appetite. "I have
always eaten little - I was called "la nina de la media almendra'" (the girl of
half an almond) and she would smile with pleasure at memories brought back by this mild
witticism. It was difficult for me with my hearty appetite to understand how she could
have resisted for so many years the delicacies which came from my grandmother's kitchen.
My last memories of her were just after my mother's death in 1925.
Warned by some inner feeling my mother, on her arrival in Mérida had gone straight from
the station to see Tia Felipa. She had gone against our protests. It was a short visit,
and I do not know what they said to each other. But with my mother's death that night the
light went out of my great-aunt's life. I saw her many times during the next six months
but she had changed beyond recognition. She seemed to have turned away from the world of
the living to wander down a dim path leading back to the past and to her memories. Three
years later she died.